Can Your Marriage Survive Pregnancy?
I had no choice. Get out of the apartment. This is what female lawyers have advised when your wife is hitting you. Usually my wife blocks off the door so I can’t leave, but this time I was quicker than her.
Running through the door and down the stairs, I called my mother-in law. She called 911 for an ambulance. During the call she mentioned we had been physically fighting. My wife had threatened suicide via pills, hit me in the face, and chucked her heavy purse at my face. Just a bloody lip for me this time.
Moments after making the call, my wife sent me a text urging me to come quick. Something bad had happened. Rushing back in, she was on the floor holding her stomach. “What happened!?!?!” I asked her.
In haste to chase after me already being dizzy, she had run into the corner of a shelf. Yea, I know how that sounds, because when the cops showed up – which they have to during “domestic dispute” calls, they asked her several times. Often when women are abused, that is exactly what they would say. “I fell down the stairs,” or “I ran into the wall”, or “I hit my head on the bed post.” (I know a girl who alleged this.)
Except here she ran into a shelf. Even though I was the victim here, it sure didn’t sound that way to onlookers. Come several days later and some of my wife and mother in laws friends were asking her if she’s SURE she ran into a shelf. Honestly, I would too.
Rumors will swell and I’m sure I’ll be portrayed as a very timid deer. Oh well, me and my wife only have to last another 6 months here before we move back. To be honest, it wears on me to always be the bad guy to people we know. Online, I don’t care, but close to home it takes a heavy toll – especially considering I have no close friends or family around.
When You Really Do Love Someone
So many marriages are dysfunctional in some manner, rather then harmonious fairy tales. You see couples mingling happily at parties with each other, but what’s lurking under that surface? Everyone pretends life is FANTASTIC!! To outward eyes, they aren’t just at Disney World, they are it.
Take perfect me. While I and my wife are constantly intimate, it hasn’t staved off issues from her past – one’s I was fully aware of. It’s led to us literally biting, slapping, and even hitting each other – but more on that later.
Safe to say, a lot of things haven’t gone according to expectations for us – especially our move to our current place. She thought she would have a specific job. We didn’t expect another pregnancy so soon. With both of us working for a bit, saving some money up was expected. Most certainly, we never expected to lay a hand on each other.
Welcome to pregnancy.
What I described earlier was just another day of joyous and stress free pregnancy – almost finally at the end. My wife’s been pregnant for essentially two years with back-to-back boys. Can we last through this? Surely if this is the worst, it can only get better?
Those romantics among us hope it can. The harsh truth is a much more difficult question. So much bullshit is spouted about what it should be, but no one talks about the behind-the-scenes dysfunction that most marriage suffer.
Most people won’t admit to because of their pride, reputation and what other people will think. I suppose in the digital and social media age where haters are always looking for ways to malign you, it makes sense if you want to exist quietly and living your life happily.
Marriage is a loaded term today filled with gloried ideals and bitter stories from those around us. Some people hate it ranging from MGTOWS to angry rad feminists who consider it evil and part of Patriarchal oppression. Cool. I can’t tell you how many twilight zone divorce stories I’ve heard, and “forgiveness” and encouragement to get married urges don’t follow. I understand why.
Truth is that when your marriage hits lows – even those weekly ones – people don’t talk about how low because they are afraid of the judgment . I’ll bite the bullet and share the dirty violent details.
Before I was married, I swore that I would leave any women who hit me, assaulted me, etc. Pride aside, take enough hits from someone and you will hit back in some manner.
That always being in the back of my mind and what happens in domestic situations when the cops get called, abusers aren’t worth my time. Then again when you really love a women – especially if she’s your wife, leaving her to fend for herself isn’t an option.
Rolling With The Punches
You think you know your wife, but not until pregnancy do you know what festers beneath. Pregnant women attacking their husbands with feminine graceful fists is a staple of time, because so many men and women I know laugh about it when I tell them.
I just never knew about it till now. Turns out a lot of women didn’t know this rage and capacity for violence was in them until they were pregnant. When you start to read various forum boards and sites dedicated to “mommies” and dealing with pregnancy, it starts to appear:
“I know I am not alone because one of my best friend’s DH told me he has been physically attacked in every one of his wife’s 3 pregnancies, and she is not a violent girl at all.”
When a women becomes pregnant, so much about her changes. Obviously she gets a bit hungrier – hangry – as a I call it, as well as grump, frustrated, sometimes even jealous. Raging hormones escalate everything to the max level of what it could be.
While we’ve had sex practically everyday – which still isn’t enough for my wife’s increased “Take off your clothes now” drive, the negatives always linger. We’ve had fights escalate over the smallest things to the point of where we are screaming at each other.
The question becomes, how much do you really LOVE your wife? What are you willing to forgive? Can you swallow your pride? Note, we are still going strong as I write this. Also, this is not about being a victim. It’s about how to address this problem.
Swallowing that pride becomes VERY difficult when things become physical. Many a time my wife has hit me, got on top of me pinning me to the bed or couch, started choking me, digging her nails into me, and even going for crotch kicks and punches. Normally, Id toss her off. However, with the pregnancy I can’t do that.
When she blocks me from leaving the house my standing in front of the door and or physically holding me back from leaving, I can’t just shove her into a wall. Other men have told me how it happened to them, but I didn’t know how it felt until it happened to me. Neither did I know that feeling of helplessness that envelops you completely. You bounce between feeling bad for her to feeling outraged with her.
There have been moments I wanted to shove her head through the wall, just as she has wanted to do to me and they scream in your mind to obey your inner animal urges when the fights are physical.
My wife isn’t stupid, and when she’s in a rage, she uses this to her advantage. Essentially she can rain down hell and there’s nothing I can do. Unfortunately there’s been a few times where I could deal with it no more.
Before I go further, some things have to be mentioned. My wife was raped freshman year of college. I didn’t actually believe her at first because of the amount of false accusations out there and the very loose definitions applied to “sexual assault” and “rape” by feminist types.
I knew I would have to deal with it, but it pours the rage, frustration, and anger into her at times when she is already stressed and her hormones are raging. My wife is phenomenal women. She’s strong, loving, and loves me without a shadow of a doubt and would do anything for me.
This comes back to her, but when she is seeing red, the violence overtakes her, almost like a bloodlust. All logic is gone. She is consumed. Often I’m lucky, she’ll only throw things all over and against the walls. (That includes her glasses, which shockingly haven’t broken yet, and older phone that did break, and numerous other objects.)
Sometimes I’m afraid that some of my cherished possessions – namely my desktop computer – might become a casualty. If her seeing red is complete, she has before dumped out my coffee and even some whiskey because she knew it would irk me – especially as I often cant afford to replace the whiskey, let alone my desktop computer. A very keen new style of warfare I must say in “break his shit”.
She’s also no pushover with the exertion of force. The punches hurt. In middle-school and highschool she was a bully and she beat up boys and girls. Also, she always got away with it and she would tell me how she used to cry and shed some tears when questioned about her role. Worked wonders avoiding trouble for her part in the beatings.
She knows how to reign down wrath. I’ve had cuts, deep scratches, bloody lips, and bruises and swelling on my face. I consider myself lucky. One of my wife’s friends shoved her husband down the stairs in a pregnancy influenced rage. Suffice to say their marriage has been very bumpy since.
Now when her rage is done, she’s that sweet innocent and crying girl who doesn’t know why she’s hitting me and what’s happening to her. Pregnancy indeed. At that point, all I can do is hold her tight and swallow justified anger.
Later on I’ll lightly chide her for it and she’ll do her little girl pose saying, “I’m an innocent angel.” She certainly can be and just like that, it’s like it never happened. But then it does happen. Again.
So what do you do? I’m not calling the police, because I love my wife and my son needs his mother as does this baby soon to come. Essentially, there is no immediate penalty right now for hitting me.
The Facebook Posts You Don’t See
When we were living with my inlaws, I can recall one time where we were fighting and it got physical. She ended up on top of me choking me – she doesn’t remember her choking me during this fight. I was so mad I started choking her back. If she was going to choke me, I was going to choke her back and let her see how it felt. Her parents ended up walking in and seeing this and well, nothing’s ever been the same in terms of “abuse”.
I’m not a big manly guy. I’m five foot seven, have boyish looks, and a good amount of people thought I was gay- to give you a picture. My wife has been in more fights then I have and she knows how to throw a punch.
Many men are raised to never hit a woman. I don’t ascribe to that. If a girl throws a punch at me, she receive one in kind. However, this is my wife, not some girl I barely know.
Even still I can recall snapping. One fight, she kept hitting me to the point I saw red. She hit my leg hard and I snapped back and hit her leg shouting, “How do like it” as both anger and tears flowed from her. This exchange went back and forth.
The attacks usually flow from my wife when (1) I’m not listening enough (2) I don’t let her talk. Usually that means she is hearing and seeing red from the pregnancy hormones and if I don’t say she’s correct in some way, I’m not “listening” and I’m going to be eating a punch.
To make it worse, she doesn’t let me leave. She makes sure to block the door off making me feel like a caged animal. Honestly even after our fights are over, it still bugs me. (One time I had to jump off our balcony to evade being hit and to get out of the apartment.)
One time I definitely ended up being the aggressor. Another fight and the previous day I had suffered some punches. That night we were arguing and she threw a set of keys across the room which I thought had been intended for me.
I saw red and immediately tackled her to the bed and grabbed her hair and pulled on it hard. A second later I five starred her back. In her eyes, for the first time, I could see fear. My wife was actually afraid of me and to top it off, she IS PREGNANT.
It made me recoil in horror. “What was happening to me? While she has asked this question many a time to me, now I was asking it of myself. I had never done anything like this before to a girl. I had snapped and I was blaming her for it.
Worse off it concerned and troubled me. I had a momentary experience of what all these feminist types want to insist we “Red-Pilled types are – abusive monsters rather then men who love women for who they are. Obviously, they don’t care about my wife’s role, but still it shocked me.
Learning and Loving
Fun fact: When I’ve mentioned to people that my pregnant wife hits me frequently, people laugh about it. When customers call in to where I work and ask me how I’m doing, I’ll remark something like, “I’m surviving pregnancy” and about how I’m dodging punches.
They laugh about it as if it’s pretty normal to dodge punches from you wife. Gauge this reaction and I’m betting that this happens to a lot of other men, but society consider it normal. If so, why the constant huff and haw about domestic violence?
In many ways, we do give pregnant woman a hell of a pass, but I suppose it’s part of the price for birthing not just my children, but the next generation. Again, I will note that the “violence” part only has occurred during pregnancy and it’s not like an early scene from “Enough” where Jennifer Lopez is getting pummeled by her manipulative husband when they think of domestic violence. (1) Honestly consider what we imagine when hear of “violence” in relationships (2) consider how many other couples report the same issues. (My wife’s Faecbook mommy group apparently has some aggressive mommies.)
Now normally when my wife hits me, she’ll tell me its my fault because I didn’t let her talk. Classic abuser behavior is blaming the victim for why the abuse is happening. When I’ve let her know that I’m angry about her “physical abuse”, she will retort she’s mad about my “emotional abuse”.
Right there you have the excuse and catalyst and it makes perfect sense to her. Even though my wife knows she is violent sometimes, it’s still likely I would go to jail – even if I’m keeled over bleeding because of the way the system works. (The Duluth Model)
Despite all of this that I’ve mentioned, we are in good shape as a couple. Valentines day for us was extra special. You now know we have our flaws. I’m just here to let you know that those of you out there in this kind of situation aren’t alone.
Now I know my wife really does love and is loyal to me. One single call , I could be carted off regardless of how many times she had hit me. It’s a terrible imbalance of power, but nothing can be done about it. Life isn’t fair. She would never do this, but she has the power so to speak that makes marriage such a risky proposition for men.
You can never fully know your wife before marriage, but you can know what kind of women she is. Loyalty, loyalty – and sex – are probably the most important things a girl can give you. It can and will make the difference when life starts to hit hard – literally.